Wednesday, October 21, 2015

From the desk of Kat

Howdy Beautiful People,

I haven't been around at all and I miss everyone. Thank you all so much for keeping in contact with me via Messenger and email. I know I don't respond as I should, but just know that I appreciate each and every one of you.

I elected to wait for Misconduct's release before I updated y'all. At the moment, I only have chemotherapy and side effects going on. I don't know the proper protocol in this situation. While I don't mind keeping everyone updated, I'm not sure if you'll get tired of my cancer talk. HOWEVER, with the release of another book, we're back on common ground.

Misconduct is Digger's book, but Outlaw's POV comprises roughly half the book. Why? Until Misconduct, we've seen the effect of Digger's betrayal from either Outlaw's or Mortician's POV. Now, as we finally get to hear Digger's side, the story felt incomplete without following how Outlaw deals with all the ramifications of Digger's actions.



Besides Misconduct, the only time I wasn't online for the release of a book was for Misled, my very first. I'd like to thank all the bloggers and readers who are posting and blitzing today and helping me to celebrate Misconduct's release.

As of now, there's one final book--a novella titled Misfit--left before the series concludes. I've gotten questions about books on future generations. My intentions were to retire the series at the close of Misfit. However, I never expected the character of CJ to take on such a presence (even at the tender age of two). At the moment, additional books are in the early planning stages with CJ and Harley as hero and heroine of one and Diesel and Rebel as hero and heroine of another. Can you just imagine the shit fit Outlaw will have when Rebel gets involved with Diesel, who is about 14 years older than she is? ;-) Before I get to those books, though, I intend to write Abby and Parnell's story from the Phoenix Rising Series. I'm not sure if I'll go farther than that with this series. I have other story ideas and some covers created by the brilliant Crystal Cuffley. I'm not putting any timetable on release dates, given the current situation.

And what exactly is the current situation?

I've gotten 7 of 16 chemotherapy treatments. My hair is gone and I noticed this morning my eyebrows seem to be thinning. Chemo continues to tear my stomach to pieces. I also have bruising, nosebleeds, blurry vision at times, and very little energy. Along with Herceptin, Paclitaxil, and Pertuzamab, I also receive Pepcid, Dexamethasone, and Benadryl as pre-meds. I've explained my nearly life-long battle with depression in previous Facebook discussions. The steroid has sent me spiraling into a deep depression, which has added to my sapped energy. Between the depression and the chemo, I barely want to move. I haven't given up, though, and I won't. It just makes the battle a little more challenging. The good news is my cancer IS responding to the chemotherapy, so I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel. The journey is just peppered with patches of darkness, but that keeps life interesting, right? My gynecologist is now recommending the removal of my ovaries. Until now, we've taken a wait-and-see attitude with the cysts on my ovaries. This is the current plan of action: neoadjuvant chemotherapy --> mastectomy --> radiation --> breast reconstruction and removal of non-cancerous breast --> reconstruction of non-cancerous breast. If my ovaries are removed, that will happen during the mastectomy of the right bright. I have opted to have a double mastectomy. Why? 1.) I was burned by the misdiagnosis of the mass in the right breast and I currently have cysts "that need watching" in the left one. 2.)They've served me well, so they can have their rest. 3.)Breasts and ovaries have no bearing on my femininity. It's how I perceive myself. Besides, even if it meant I grew a penis a foot long and five inches wide (overdramatic, yes?) staying alive is more important than keeping breasts and ovaries.

I've always taken comfort in reading. At the moment, I'm too jittery to properly focus. That is another side effect of the steroid. My kindle is stuffed with books I'm dying to read (er, no pun intended)...I just can't focus enough to do so. As of this writing, I'm still blazing into Toledo, OH and partying like a rock star in October 2016. DeLonn Donovan and Travis Lee Ferguson are still slated to appear, too. IF any of that changes, you'll be the first to know.

I leave you with this advice. Whatever challenges you may face, you're strong enough to handle. Never forget that and never doubt yourself. And please, please don't put off annual check-ups.

With much love,

Kat



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